Living in the moment... One day at a time

Why do we look back or ahead of time instead of focusing on what we can do right now?

Why are we so eager to bring up the past or future... instead of looking at the here and now 

We make plans and we think back on the plans we've made before to say this works for me or this doesn't- We never seem to be in the actual moment of deciding whats right for us and what isnt but still using our knowledge from before - but being able to take a step back and not re live every moment in the past. The future is unknown and we need to do things in the present to lay down the foundation for the future. 

The Daily Grind

I am a city full of people - sometimes I am loud and noisy like on a busy street -
other times I am as quiet and peaceful like the wind rushing through the trees.

I am at times Dark and rainy other times - I am Bright and sunny

The daily Grind Can bring you down the daily grind can also bring you up

People who you learn live and laugh- People who are all around just evil

The Daily grind can seem like just another day- but its small moments and small words of wisdom that make the biggest difference.

:-)

How to reach those dreams

Small steps for me to take everyday to better myself and reach those dreams would be -
Going for walks with my dog, studying, eating right and looking for a new apartment knowing that my children will come to me when they are old enough I am able to focus on building a foundation where one day we can live as a family in the house by the lake I always dream about. :)

My dreams

I have big plans in my life by 26 I plan to loose more weight.
I wanna see my children again and gain a relationship from them.
Have a wonderful job and a wonderful place to live.
I'd love to live on the beach and here the waves crashing every morning and night
I hope I have a supportive and caring husband who loves me very much and  doesent make me lose trust in him.
I'd like to limit my stress to a minimum.
Id love to travel to my home country Romania
Meet my mother and father from Romania
Have enough money to live off of

5 things I want for my house

Lots of windows
front /backyard
3 bedroom house
2 story
on a quiet residential neighborhood

My mentor

My mentor is my mother Elaine, even though we don't always see eye to eye its the fact she doesn't want me to give up and see me fail at life, she knows when I'm trying and when I'm not and her words during tough times. The funny thing is her words are always with me even when we haven't officially talked in years - things like - The choices you make whether they are good or bad will affect you - or Get your education and a job for yourself, never let a man be the one who has the control in case something happens you need to rely on yourself.
its with these types of sayings that keep me level and grounded and although my mom and I aren't talking I know she would be proud of the steps I have taken :)

Finding a mentor

I have a few good friends who are older and wiser and overall have a lot of experience  in life having themselves  gone thought the same issues as a younger person - their guidance prevents you from making the same mistakes. The right mentor will never steer you in the wrong direction. :)

New skills and opportunities

I'd like to travel to Romania to meet my mother
learn the language or the Roma people
Meet my children and continue my education in order to become an office administrator.
I'd like to talk to my mother that had adopted me and become better friends again.
I want to get married and have 2 more (beautiful) children and find a house and grow old in that house <3

Steps I can take today!!!

1. Exercise - not just good for loosing weight but also to destress
2. Being an active listener so my friends and family know I care about what they say
3. Go to church and get involved
4.Finnish Highschool
5. work on resume

Its not impossible...its just difficult

For me - After having my second child the weight just stuck to me... I'm finding now that I have alot more energy and have the urge to drink smoothies for my food so far I've lost 8lbs this month thus far  meaning my over all average for wieght loss is improving from 3 years ago id average loosing  around 5 lbs a month without added exercise - I am finding eating the right foods/ right portion of food your body can properly decide what energy to store and what energy to use  which means in 2 months time rather thhan loosing 10 lbs a month I am closer to 20lbs a month doing what I know is right for my body :)

My footprint

When I do pass on I hope that my life was very fulfilling - for me that would mean meeting my children first and foremost, getting good grades in college- getting a job in my field of study - maybe have a husband and 2 more children settling down and visiting Romania to meet my biological family :) Money is not a factor for me as a foot print although I would very much like to leave money for my little ones education I want the world to know I love my children and if I were to die I'd be happiest with the knowledge theyre happy  safe and well loved

Am I positive

I believe I am a positive person my philosophy has always been to treat people the way they wish to be treated. Because I have been hurt before and only had myself to blame as I had mistreated someone.

Howdo you talk to yourself

I tell myself at times Calm down! live in the moment!!!! Having some fear is good but when you are so affraid the fear alone clouds your judgement where the inner voice is hardly heard this is a problem because its the inner the good inner voice we need to listen to - the inner voice that says - its not that bad/ it will get better :)

Going to church

I have been going to chruch on a more regular basis- which makes me feel spiritually well  inside and believing in God because I believe I am here for a purpose- I know this is true because of the many times I have made mistakes that have ended up showing me that this is not the way - there is a plan for me :)

How I see myself

I am not perfect- but i keep trying to better my life and surroundings. There is alot about this world that I dislike but there are few people who make this world worth living for. I see myself as imperfect because I have made mistakes - I see the world as both good and bad because of experiences not all were good but not all were bad either

Simply breathe in and out

What do you see when you close your eyes*

I see dark waves moving toward the cold sand - crashing waves off in the distance the smell of the beach and the smell of the night thick with dew and twinkling lights from the stars and moon fill the sky - thinking about going camping again :)

My Philosophy

I believe I am a positive person, My philosophy hasnt changed from what I was taught as a little girl - To treat people the same way you wish to be treated.
Ive found my philosophy is the same as ever and its now more than ever I wont give into being a mean person to simply get ahead.

How I talk to myself

I tell myself at times calm down live in the moment stop rushing things or fearing to do anything as I do is very difficult at times I tell myself some fear is good but when you are so afraid the fear alone clouds your judgement.